If there are tears of joy, there are also tears of pain. It’s been long time since these tears just keep on falling on my cheeks. I wanted to stop but it and not to entertain such tears but no matter how much I control it, it will just fall down. I guess tears knows much more when you are hurt or not. You may hide the pain but tears will just show up. You may want to keep the pain and ignore it for a while but tears will always be there for you to realize that you are in pain in so much pain.
I am tired of crying, tired of getting hurt and so much tired of this life that full of pain. I don’t know if pain is my twin or what, because no matter what I do, no matter how much I tried so hard to make my life easier and happy tears will always have a space. I don’t have any choice but to deal with it no matter how difficult it is, face with it with all braveness and courage. But I am just a human being getting weak and getting tired have given up and surrendered but still pain keep on sovereignty in my totally of person.
Now, I am in imprisoned for pain has captivated me. I don’t know when I could get my freedom. I just pray and hold tight that this pain would somehow depart from me completely and won’t ever come back.